Thursday, December 13, 2007 @
8:54 AM
as de days passes..de time i have left in JJ is getting lesser and lesser..o1 is gonna be de only camp left tat i am going to take part as a JJcian..everytime i think of this, i feel as if there are knives stabbing into my heart..it really hurts..even though at first i decided on JJ becuz of its leaders stuff, over time i have grown to love de place..de environment and most importantly de ppl..i hate to leave my friends..my teachers...as well as de leaders..after spending such a long period of time with a bunch of crazy ppl arnd me..i find it hard to leave things behind..but leaving is de only choice for me..i tried very hard but i still failed..u may think mayb i haven worked hard enough..but i have already put in my all becuz i feared this day...i tried my best to prevent it frm happening but it still did...i think jc is not for me..i really cant keep up so i have to let go..wondering how i am gonna survive jj night with all tat emo-ness..but i noe somebody will be there for me..somone who has been thru it b4...she would understand me best..hope i will feel better when i start my poly life..hopes for de best...u are de one i cant bear to leave most..but looking at u frm afar is enough for me..
HEARTBROKEN
